I mean, not that my friends on here aren't friends, but I mean... if I want to 'open up' about stuff, then I don't want my closest friends or brothers reading all the personal details.
Well... since I last wrote
I'm no longer single.
And I'm so happy about it, because I really... care for Dave. I feel comfortable with him as well... it's hard to explain really... but before we got together, we talked about where we wanted things to go and okay, it's a little early to talk about getting serious but... well, like Jaz said, whether we're together y'know 5 months or 5 years, we're gonna be getting on fine and enjoying ourselves.
I don't know how to break it to my parents though that some time or other I'm going to want to spend the night round his, and yes, it's a little early days because we haven't slept together yet but... long term, I've never been in a proper relationship, yes, I've done casual shit but nothing like... staying the night on a regular basis, knowing his parents and just simple things like showering or straghtening my hair at his place; going round his house and being invited in to wait for him... simple relationship stuff.
Last night was odd. We were kissing goodnight and I just realised that I couldn't get enough of him. I wanted to just bury myself into him, and maybe that isn't in just a sexual way but... I don't know, I said it was odd, hard to explain, really hard.
I'm a bit of a romantic so I can't wait for us to... evolve into the stage where I can just lick or bite or touch him for no other reason besides affection, which we sort of have at the moment - he'll kiss my temple or stroke my fingers but we're still a new couple.
And I don't know whether I want to be a two-part-person. I mean, Jaz and Steve, their names just roll off your tongue together and well, to be associated like that, as a couple, y'know, a proper couple, it's a little... daunting but... not unwanted, y'know?
I know I'm not making
If anyone has any advice (and does anyone use LJ anymore?) then that'd be greatly appreiciated, if anyone can determine what I mean y'know, empathy would be amazing right now.